Big Girl: A Novel

Alive with delicious prose and the cacophony of 90s Harlem, Big Girl gifts us a heroine carrying the weight of worn-out ideas, who dares to defy the compulsion to shrink, and in turn teaches us to pursue our fullest, most desirous selves without shame. Janet Mock

Malaya Clondon hates when her mother drags her to Weight Watchers meetings in the churchs stuffy basement community center. A quietly inquisitive eight-year-old struggling to suppress her insatiable longing, she would much rather paint alone in her bedroom, or sneak out with her father for a sampling of Harlems forbidden street foods.

For Malaya, the pressures of going to a predominantly white Upper East Side prep school are compounded by the high expectations passed down over generations from her sharp-tongued grandmother and her mother, Nyela, a painfully proper professor struggling to earn tenure at a prestigious university. But their relentless prescriptionsfad diets of cottage-cheese and sugar-free Jell-O, high-cardio African dance classes, endless doctors appointmentsdont work on Malaya.

As Malaya comes of age in a rapidly gentrifying 1990s Harlem, she strains to understand ladyness and fit neatly within the suffocating confines of a so-called femininity that holds no room for her body. She finds solace in the lyrical riffs of Biggie Smalls and Aaliyah, and in the support of her sensitive father, Percy; still, tensions at home mount as rapidly as Malayas weight. Nothing seems to helpuntil a family tragedy forces her to finally face the source of her hunger on her own terms.

Exquisitely compassionate and clever, Big Girl is filled with everyday people who, in Mecca Jamilah Sullivans gifted hands, show us the love and struggle of what it means to be inside bodies that dont always fit with the outside world (Jacqueline Woodson). In tracing the perils and pleasures of the inheritance that comes with being born, Sullivan pushes boundaries and creates an unforgettable portrait of Black womanhood in America. See more