{"product_id":"i-love-you-so-much-its-killing-us-both","title":"I Love You So Much It's Killing Us Both","description":"\u003cp\u003eMeet Khaki Oliver, a woman perennially trying to disappear: into a codependent friendship; an ill-advised boyfriend; the punk scene; or simply, the ether. These days, it's a meaningless job and an empty apartment. \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eThen, after a decade of estrangement, she receives a letter from her former best friend - Fiona's throwing a party for her newly adopted daughter and wants Khaki to join the celebration. \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eKhaki is equal parts terrified and tempted to reconnect. Their platonic love was confusing, all-consuming, and encouraged their worst impulses. While stalling her RSVP, Khaki starts crafting the perfect mixtape-revisiting memories of formative shows, failed romances, and the ups and downs of desire and denial-while weighing the risks and rewards of saying yes to Fiona again. \u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eOne song at a time, from 1980s hardcore to 2010s emo, the shared and separate contours of each woman's mind come into focus. Will listening to the same old songs on repeat doom Khaki to a lonely life of arrested development? Or will hindsight help her regain her sense of self and pave a healthy path for the future?\u003c\/p\u003e\u003cp\u003eSet in the suburbs of Los Angeles and New York City \u003ci\u003eI Love You So Much It's Killing Us Both\u003c\/i\u003e is a Black woman's coming-of-age story, chronicling a life-changing friendship, the interplay between music fandom and identity, and the slipperiness of sanity.\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"Influx Press","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":53745702961496,"sku":"9781914391446","price":17.99,"currency_code":"EUR","in_stock":true}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0278\/1295\/4195\/files\/9781914391446.jpg?v=1777123819","url":"https:\/\/agendabookshop.com\/products\/i-love-you-so-much-its-killing-us-both","provider":"Agenda Bookshop","version":"1.0","type":"link"}