The Widow''s Crayon Box: Poems

After her husbands death, Molly Peacock realized she was not living the received idea of a widows mauve existence but instead was experiencing life in all colors. These gorgeous poemsjoyful, furious, mournful, bewildered, sexy, devastated, whimsical and above all, movingcomposed in sonnet sequences and in open forms, designed in four movements (After, Before, When, and Afterglow)illuminate both the role of the caregiver and the crystalline emotions one can experience after the death of a cherished partner. With her characteristic virtuosity, her fearless willingness to confront even the most difficult emotions, and always with buoyancy and zest, Peacock charts widowhood in the twenty-first century.

From Touched:
After you died, I felt you next to me,
and over months you entered gradually
into that lake and disappeared. Not gone,
but so internalized youre not next to me.