Coming, Not Going: A Search for God Away from the Church

This is a record of a search - but what matters is the finding.  
It began when the death of my husband, a priest, jolted me into recognising that the belonging I had always thought I had inside traditional Church doctrine and liturgy wasnt there: no connection between it and the feeling quick of me. Urgent and hungry for understanding, with my back to the Church door, I found myself suddenly focusing on creativity: on the description of a creator God making man in his own image. That set me searching the work and words of some of the greatest creators - painters, sculptors, musicians, writers - and then scientists - for clues to the possibility - or not - of an over-arching creativity. 
What Ive found has astonished me: extraordinary coherence of creative experiences across cultures and centuries: coherence that insists on both the breath-taking glories and mysteries of a physical world that is patterned - yet open. Rich feeding of my inside life - but more: creativity mirroring that of the adult Jesus in the Gospels, turning my sense of a possible God, of holiness and what it is to be human, inside out. See more